NOPE… its studying time… exams dates are really closing me.
And i have to get my mind in the game. I wan to prove to my oldest brother that i can get good grades.
At least improve! so i am so gng to kill IP… WDD… and and… COM MATH~!
the rest… i am still abit struggling… but i have to murder EC and OSM soon before it kills me.
So next murdering day would be next Tues. Victim- Com skills.
ok la i know its boring to hear abt my studies stuff
but i really need to psycho myself. Treat it as a enemy fight it… get over and done with!!
DUN RUN AWAY!
Indeed indeed last night was a BIG experience. – SA production
after all the hard work was shown… i was quiet striving hard to absorb the joy/tears of everyone, laughter, the presence, the lighting and smell of TFA~!
It was kinna pity for me but i am happy that 2 of my closest friend manage to witness the babies of my hard work. Even though many may not give a damn. But i dun care i credit myself!
It seems like the word “good job” from casts, directors, fellow actors doesn’t work on me.
i am quite destined to only absorb applause!!
(: haha… and even though i have no idea wad the audience are clapping for…
HEEHEE i am assuming its props to the props HAHAHA!
so so… thank God is over.
No more of checking props making sure its there.
No more reminding assigning each prop to ppl to bring on stage.
No more worrying of the cloths that it will tear or just get ruin.
No more reciting each scenes and props in my mind before i sleep.
phew…
NO MORE… coming back to sch on a weekend to do props…
BUT
i have to return the wheel chair back to SJCP soon. HEE LAZY~!!!!!
I kinna sort it all in my mind. That God prepared me for this moment many years back.
When i was left to do behind the scenes stuff, when i wasn’t in the lime light stuff, when i wasn’t doing stuff that i am best at, when i was left to do shity jobs…
Few years back. MY EGO caused me but he trained me, prepared me and i became humble.
I saw the bigger picture. i removed my feet and put in the shoes of others. I became to realize its not always abt ME. ITS THE BIG PICTURE…
At that time… i self pity. I cry… my spirit was broken…
BUT NOW… haha
i know and i am OK with arrangements like that.
Cause its not a ME thing. (: i am glad i am doing props cause i came to realize.
If i didn’t take the job. Who is willing?to actually take the job and produce good work{i know Frans is willing}
I must say SA production is no longer a club thing.
its a tool to neutral my growth (: make me mature… build up my humbleness…
BUT somehow… i still feel i am destined to shine… to absorb only applause HAHA
see how big my ego is… ironic.
But its good to see how our seniors are so proud of us. (:
SO after the tiring day.
i met up with SLACKERZ at Plaza Sing and boarded Lurvies’ car.
wanted to go timbre but she just went in rounds.
But i really like road trips i really do.
i always envy when parents picked their children to and fro school or places.
and soo… we watched… DARK KNIGHT!
so wei da la he…
really the only other guy that i feel is more wei da then him is JESUS.
but its like sacrificing the fame the honor in exchange for criticism, shame
so wei da can.
BUT STILL
i love spider man~! HAHAHAHHAA….
i love spider man~!
i cant deny that fact… i still love spider man…
(:
sorry ppl… the movie was awesome but i still love spiderman..
ok pics will be up soon… (:
p.s i love stitch and mew. Cause they both bring joy to me… (: haha
